Annie, are you OK?

Aha.

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 11:38:58 GMT

http://www.w3schools.com:
For W3C compliant CSS: If you define the color property, you must also define the background-color property.

Right. Interesting.

Also, JQuery is oh so wicked. I'm happy on the inside with having to code a mock-up (just a user interface with no real functions behind it) at work; getting to learn new stuff on the side is wonderful.

I'm also dead tired and shaking, cause I had about 3 cups of coffee to get my brains going.

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 11:46:01 GMT

If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

Hey.

The traditional celebrations of the Finnish Mid Summer took place yesterday. Well, for me it wasn't that traditional this year, since normally I spend the time at my family's cottage with various relatives coming for a visit. This year, having moved into this awesome house at the sea, I decided to stay here with my mates and alter the tradition a bit. Most of it was kept intact: sauna, swimming, too much food, alcohol in fair amounts...The only thing that really was changed was the company and that we got to swim in the actual sea. Bloody cold and salty! The party was rather nice in all, even if none of my own buddies managed to get their lazy butts here. My house mates on the other hand had visitors, so I got my share of socializing. And I also got to shine with my guitar hero skills again, though I did lose once, damn it:D

At some point of the evening we went for a walk and some of us girls gathered the 7 different kinds of flowers that you're supposed to get during Mid Summer. Then you'd put them under your pillow and have a dream of the guy you're supposed to marry. Or girl, since our company included persons of other sexual orientations. I am not sure, what the male equivalent to this ritual would be. Anyways, my dreams did not bring me any comfort to the mean things Facebook's been telling me lately: apparently I do not want to become married.

Also viewpoints on religious beliefs were shared, thanks to my friends the atheist and the theologist. My views, if subtly different and filled with kindness of human spirit, seem to categorize in Christianity. I must give this some thought.

After waking up this morning with absolutely no hang-over, I sat down to take in the view once again, through our huge living room windows. The view included our neighbor's (the florists') flag, that was flown at half-staff. So it is, that our 90-year old sea captain, the father of the florist, has died. We thought of later going in to give our condolences.

Touristing in Chile

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 18:24:32 GMT

    The business of making friends is weird when travelling. I have to admit, I didn't realise at first, that it's going to be like this. We change place so frequently that we always end up leaving everyone behind or at least too soon people choose a different route. That's how it goes, when everyone has their own plans and us, having pretty much everything put down on our calendar, we don't have that much free time to choose any differently. It does make me slightly sad, but the fun part is that many people take the same route as we, just the timing is a bit different, so we occasionally end up seeing friends in unexpected places. We got our base of friends at Hostal Forestal in Santiago. There were Jean (French), Catharine (US), Karen (Swiss), Joe (US), Thomas (Swiss), some funny (weird?) slovanian heavy metal guys (Klimen and the others?), David (US), Frank (GER), Rodrigo (the manager), some argentinian girls whose names are unknown to us, the brasilian guys sharing a matrimonial bed, Renata (BRA), David (BRA) and el Bebe (BRA), Emily (UK) and Kersti (UK). Did I miss anyone?
    Already there we we're comparing our travel plans to see who's going to be where and so on. We didn't really have our hopes up, but we thought we might meet up with the brasillians Renata, David and el Bebe, cause they would be going to Valparaiso same as us. Sadly we didn't make any plans as to where and when we'd meet them. After some lovely nights in Santiago we went up to Valparaiso (accompanied by the US guys David and Joe), where the famous poet Pablo Neruda (Nobel prize in god knows when) has a house. The guys and us went our separate ways since we had a hostel reservation and they didn't, so they just went and found a place to stay. We didn't have any way to contact them once gone so that's pretty much the last we saw of them. But then, happily, we got some new friends, mainly Lee (Korea) and Fransisco (ARG), visited some Pablo Neruda spots (what an awesome mind he must have had to decorate his houses in that sense. Highly recommended!), and just relaxed on the beach in Viña del Mar. We got (badly) burned, at least Hanna did, and so shortened our lives by years. Maybe. I also got about 38 bites by bed bugs one night there, which was unfortunate.
    Bueno, we went up a cerro in Valparaiso (kind of the thing there) and suddenly just saw some familiar faces: Renata, David and el Bebe! How happy it made us! We went and had some coffee and exchanged all kinds of courtesy and info. Such a lovely company and very interesting. We don't have one mutual language all of us! With Renata it's Spanish, with David English and finally, with el Bebe it's Portugues and a little of Spanish! So our conversations were always lovely and multi-lingual! However, they've gone home to Sao Paulo now, having very hard tried to get us to come and visit, but no matter what, we couldn't fit it into our calendar.
    After Valparaiso we bussed to Curico, cause we wanted to visit the vineyard of Miguel Torres (we had done Concha y Toro in Santiago). We stayed in a fancy hostel and somehow could not manage the communication with the hostel personnal and they really thought we were just hopeless. We must have brought the bed bugs with us or maybe Hanna just gets the allergic reaction later than I, cause we got some new ones while there. But all in all, the place was lovely.
    We left Curico soon to go to Pucon (10h bus ride, parts of it sitting next to the pissed around toilet of the bus). Pucon is a city living on tourism, since there are multiple possibilities for adventure trips, hiking, biking, sun bathing and there are lakes and a few active volcanoes. We're still here, so I'll try to keep this one short. We're staying at Donde German, where once again, we got some more bites from some animals we suspected to be bed bugs, but we still don't know. We had some trouble convincing the hostal people that there were some in our room, until we found their nest under the tapesty in our room. There weren't many though, so we got rid of them with some what are they called? Raid. No new bites in the last few nights, so we should be ok now. My knee started hurting yesterday though, there must be some kind of small infection I don't know, but I'll need to get it all healed before we go hiking in Patagonia. Our new friends include Nida (US/Canada) and Fernando (Chile), but one night out we also bumped into Joe! It was sooo funny, suddenly he appeared from a crowd and hugged us and was all wtf! He was with some guy from the Netherlands, whom I just didn't really understand. We decided to go have dinner (sushi, cause Hanna had never tried it) the next day, but naturally we all were talking about a different place to meet, so it didn't work out. The guys must have thought that we ditched them and same applies to us, although we we're quite easy on thinking they'd gone to do some adventuring and just couldn't be back in time. So we had some sushi without the guys. The next day we had decided to go rafting with Nida and her chilean friend Fernando. When we got to the company organizing it, we met our lost guys as well! We mutually agreed we'd been trying very hard to meet, and everybody was happy. Joe decided to come rafting after Joost (the other guy) had made everyone want to go to the more interesting and dangerous rapids. It was good too, since he is a guy of muscles and we we're counting on him to do (some of) the paddling;) And we got it cheaper, too. So our final piscos and into the rapids! Fantastic! I swear it was one of the coolest things I've done and I'd do it again in a heart beat. I'm also glad we didn't choose the easier ones, cause these really weren't that bad. I'm secretly hoping we could go rafting in Mendoza, Argentina, as well, but don't tell Hanna...;) I've got tons of photos on facebook, but some photos can be found here as well. Below one to...well, show off!;) Seriously, if you get a change, try this.

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 00:31:36 GMT

Ta from Chile!

Omg there is so much Id like to tell you guys, but Ill try to cut it short!

New York, been there done that and absolutely going back. It was really very cool, Times Square oh all the lights! And every other place you recognize from various movies and tv series. We saw The Phantom of the Opera the musical on Broadway (yes, it totally wrecked our budjet) and now I cant stop humming the songs. One of the cool things about it was that the theater was located next to another one, where Daniel Radcliffes "Equus" was being played. The show ended about the same time as ours and we immediately noticed the crowd in front of the theater when we got out. Naturally, we decided to join all the teen fan girls waiting for Radcliffe to get out. We waited a good long while with the bloody bodyguards shouting mean things at us. Thats about the time Richard Griffiths came out of the theater (apparently he's in the show as well, but hopefully not as naked as Radcliffe) and we got a few good shots of him with Hanna's camera. Then about 10-15 min later Daniel himself came out and signed some 10-20 photos before he disappeared into the black windowed, very expensive car. We have some shots of him, too, yei! I had never imagined that he was that small and thin, though. Oogh!

Toronto, Kanada went by very fast since we only had about 10 hours to run around the city. It was hell freezing, even worse than New York. We visited the new city hall, that was designed by a Finn Viljo Revell some 15 years ago. The locals call the building "the toilet seat".

Now we finally arrived in Chile, today in the noon. Its sometimes almost uncomfortably warm, but seeing that we froze for 6 days in North America, it's definately time for something warmer.

Will try and post some photos on facebook in the next 4 days that we're staying here in Santiago!

Hyvä hetki potkia itseään nilkkaan

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 01:55:24 GMT

I am not a relationship person. I am one and I'm not. No, I don't go for one night stands either, but for some reason I find it very difficult to make room for anyone in my life. I'm busy all the time, with obligations I've made for myself. Them obligations I take fairly seriously. I like to keep my promises (I shouldn't say this here, since I'm about to break one. Only because I'm way too emotional.), whenever it's possible and it doesn't collide with my own moral beliefs etc. What I set out to say, is that most of the relationships I've tried to start end before the next full moon. After a short while I simply feel like there's no space for me; the loss of freedom comes heavy down on me. It is rather difficult to tie me down in any way.
The same applies for my beloved home country. Every now and then I feel like I need to get out. Maybe it's about going abroad to see clearly, again, what is great about Finland, to acknowledge the things that are most important, I don't know. And to define the things that make me come back. So this time it's South America, that I'm going to mirror to my life here. To be somewhere that far should remind me how to love everything that is ok in my life.

I am rather certain I have not felt this shit about anything since Spring 2007. The time in between has not been great either (as I mentioned in my previous post). It took me long to recover from a non-functioning relationship-wannabe (the imaginary "fuck you" -phone calls have not ended, though) and now, not even two years later, it's back to the start, again. It will be difficult, but perhaps a life needs to be shattered to pieces..wait, totally screwed up before it can be made anew. If I want to change the direction my life is currently going, I can't keep many bits that meant so much. There are some things, mainly people and routines, that stay in your life forever and thank god for those. They'll be the safety network that one needs. Then there are the things that disappear completely, or are pushed into a tiny pool of memories, that surface occasionally in the future. I am, of course, referring to people: friends and frengers of all kind. Goodbyes are a monster that I'll repel, always. It is a problem for someone like me, who gets attached to people easily. Not necessarily in a sexual way, simply that you get so used to them you can't imagine your world without them. I don't want to say goodbye, I completely refuse. I'd rather not know for sure and just go with 'See you around', cause then you never know. 'Goodbye' from someone, who has influenced me in any way, is too final to accept. If you don't want me to run away, you keep those words to yourself.

It is funny, how at this point in life the real role models turn up. Ordinary people you meet suddenly are admirable and you just wish you'd be like him or her some day. It is partly about categorizing peoples' secret wishes in life. The things you somewhere deep inside know you want, even if you are not going that way in practise. Usually you find your idols in the same group. They're the ones that already got what you want, at least seemingly. You can learn enormously from them, absorb their experience on ideals that don't crash with yours views. I've found a few idols in the last year, estimately. To know they exist and see them there makes you understand the things your life lacks and that are by all rights there for you as much as for anyone. My idols at the moment represent self-certainty, gratitude, views on life, motherhood with humour, dreaming and wit combined, joy for life. I hope I'll achieve at least some of my goals.

And no, I will never say directly what I mean. Either I don't want to make it clear or I want my entries to be at least somewhat understandable only to those that know me the best. And since I talk sensibly with only a handful of people these entries may be indescribable babble to quite a few. As it is with any human being, the facts you might know about me reveal very little if anything.

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 01:08:05 GMT

Importing all these entries from lj to facebook seems like a bad idea sometimes. I wish I could filter the people who occasionally read this on facebook; if I make it friends only on lj it will not be imported at all. Not that there are that many interested parties, but some of my lovies might take a look, if they could do it while using fb. Most of the people dont really know I have an account on lj.

While trying to think about what to write Im flipping through my entries from the year 2004 and 2005, mainly from the times I was in Paraguay. Haha, looks like I never had anything important to say. Wait, I found something after all and the memories get me real emotional. And now Im listening to Culo, its been probably 2-3 years I listened to it. How could I have forgotten about this song! I need to remember to remind Phillipa as well. I remember how I used to hate this song so bad, but after a while it became The Thing to listen to while driving around in a car with Epi. Damn damn damn! All the feelings and even smells got back to me for a second there. Im almost sad that me and Epi dont talk anymore; maybe I need to study more anthropology to be able to understand latinos better haha. Side note: the evil part of me is enjoying the fact that shes gotten a few kgs, I just saw some fresh photos of her on orkut.com. They used to call me The Chubby when I was there. Heres culo. Its the weirdest song ever. Cant imagine any one of you actually taking a liking to it.

This hasnt been a good year, for some reason. I cant remember my thoughts on 2007 but from what I can recall I firmly believe nothing has changed since the beginning of 2007. Im not the biggest fan of myself anymore. I feel like Im barely trying to be what I want to be in life. Good thing is that Im still not hating my weaknesses. I rather just try to understand them an compensate with my other qualities. Ive spent so long with myself I think I should know where my strenghts lie.
Now Im hoping Anthropology will take some of the roughness off my edges. Its started quite alright, actually: at least Im serious about it. Ive lost my touch on computer science, Im scared Ill get a bad mark for my bachelors thesis, since I couldnt be less bothered with working on it. Ill get it done, dont worry, but not as efficiently and thorough as I would hope. I used to have high standards. Ok, maybe its really just these two courses, this one where Im supposed to write the thesis and the software programming project I had last summer. They are really hard courses for your soul, they make you very tired. Soon itll be over, soon everythings going to be okay..What bugs me as well is that I dont see my buddies at school that often anymore. There are so many new people I dont know them and frankly, I dont feel the need to get to know them that well anymore. All they talk about are the courses I took 3 years ago and parties for freshmen Im unlikely to attend.

Hey people. You know when talking in English you always say "I have a body" rather than "I am a body". Whos this "I" here? If you are not your body, are you some other entity who has your body, something you can use? Is this the soul people talk about? Soul seems to be quite a religious term, yet many people who are barely religious believe in them and use the therm frequently. Same applies to the Finnish language; you always have a body and you never are your body. Im curious, how is this in your native language, or in any other weird ones you might know? Thanks to anyone wholl answer. I know I know! Im real bad at commenting, but I swear, I come to lj almost every day and read your entries even if I dont leave any marks of myself!! This is whats been happening with me using msn as well. Im so listless and lethargic that I almost never get them up and running...

156 is, still, the most perfect song ever made. Goodbyes make me cry, thus I whole heartedly hate them. Hearing Mew sing "Don't you just love goodbyes" gets me everytime.

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 21:14:18 GMT

OMG HEART THIS.

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 00:16:16 GMT

Poor me, absolutely out of money, saw Doctor Who S1 for 19,95 euros and could not resist<3

"Why do all the good ones have to be....dead?!?"

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 20:20:56 GMT

Dear diary,

It is now day number 674 of my life ALC (after last crush), and it is still looking bad. But hear, hear!

The other day whilst reading the newspaper a picture of a guy, who in my immediate opinion seemed amiable and gentle beyond any wish, caught my eye. I instantly liked him on a silly, superficial level. Next I noticed hes French, soon afterwards that he was a student in Britain and had been killed in a very cruel way. How lovely.

I really believe I should concentrate on meeting the living, but first, would you people please stop killing the men that could potentially be of my liking?

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 07:33:00 GMT

Lallalaaa Laura is a happy birdie! She got a salary raise and doesnt have to worry about not having enough money to visit South America<3

Fri, 30 May 2008 21:13:20 GMT

Oh man!
I was almost hit by a car today! Got me real emotional and weird for a while, but it all went away with the help of shoe shopping (I didnt actually buy any pair, but just gazed at them lovingly). Anyways, I was had just left the university department and was heading for the bus stop located on the other side of Kustaa Vaasa's road, which is more than 10? meters wide with four lanes for cars and one for trams. Anyways, I was up this little hill-like thing when I saw two of my buddies waiting for the traffic lights to turn green. Just when the lights turned green I started to run slowly so that I could surprise them. The lights were all the way green and I was running on the pedestrian crossing, with many people following me at normal pace. When I was some meters behind my friends I suddenly saw movement from the corner of my eye and jumped back right when a car traveling at what seemed to me like light speed passed me by centimeters. All I can remember are the drivers eyes and nothing else, not even the color of the car. I have nooo idea what he was thinking. He kept on driving with all of us more than a little dazed. Some woman was trying to check the cars licence number with no luck. But anyways, had I run even a bit faster, I might have been real hurt or even killed. That was no city speed he was driving. Shit! Really made me think, that I could have lost everything I want for my future. Maybe its time I start taking/looking for what I want.

Ja asiasta toiseen, S, I finally know how to get some action out of Leggie and Aragorn!

Mon, 19 May 2008 19:35:37 GMT

Heyall its me..

After being sick for the better part of two weeks Im finally reaching my limits. This coughing is just killing me! What does one have to do to open the blockage in the other ear?!?! I have these lovely new soccer shoes Id like to try out. Which I cant as long as Im feeling this great.

Work is busy. This guy working on my project quit a few weeks back and suddenly I have more than enough to do. Its kind of fun, but sometimes theres just so much to do that I feel Im getting nothing done. I better not turn into a workaholic like my brother.
Besides work, Im busy everywhere else too. I just started a summer course at the university; 14 weeks of 'heaven' creating a software from a scratch. And I bloody got elected the project manager, just cause nobody really wanted the part. Im not all that against it but I might be facing stressfull times ahead. Im also feeling very determined not to fail the project, cause people might be counting on me..a bit..?:D Nevertheless, the Software Engineering Project will be interesting and maybe even entertaining.

New loves include the music of Final Fantasy X. Also, finally managed to get my hands on the new album of Crystal Castles (CAN), "Thrash Thrash Thrash". Check them out at myspace.com. They make the weirdest music. Some of it is like the sounds for Commodore 64 back in the...80ies? but for a reason unknown some of their songs are just wonderous, eg. 'Insection', 'Bitter Hearts', 'Untrust Us' and 'Dolls' just to mention a few. Or just to mention my favourites:D Crimewave is awesome, too, and Im still not getting why it cant be found on the album. But anyways, great news! Theyre performing at the Flow Festival in Helsinki this summer and guess whos going to be there as well!

Manu Chao is another one of them artists Id die to see live some day. Here, the song 'Denia' which is sung in Arabic (if I remember it correctly). Also, I swear 'Para todos todo' could change my political views. Then again Im not really into politics so it wouldnt be such a shame.

LOL: Tidus laughs in FFX. Below is the comment that made my dayXP
okay: in this retarded clip Yuna wants to teach Tidus to laugh so he will feel better i think. Tidus tries to laugh and sounds like he's getting assraped by an elefant.

Sun, 18 May 2008 12:15:24 GMT

And Finland won bronze yesterday, Sweden was sent home sad! Oh the surprise! A welcome one!

ancestry

Sat, 10 May 2008 09:35:26 GMT

Finnish: from oja ‘ditch’, ‘channel’ + the local suffix -la, a habitational name from any of the numerous farms so named throughout Finland, early settlement of the country having been concentrated along waterways. The oldest record of the family name is from the 15th century.

http://www.ancestry.com/

I feel like joining:D I probably wont though, costs too much. But a fun thought.

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 09:27:40 GMT

hihihaha, Ive finally started wow:D Krissy, Viggy, shall we hang out some time?

(I (naturally) have a night elf druid to try it out. I made a second character, human, to see how it was. Im probably mostly playing the first one.)

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 20:37:50 GMT

And

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (
[x] I have many scars. (some)
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (sometimes)
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (every time Im too tired to put on my contact lenses..well and at home)
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (I don't like the idea of having surgery. *shudder*)
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (Umm, do weird online people count?)
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents. (And they laughed at me. I have not done that again.)
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school (well I for one call university a school;)
[x] I have a job
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years ("The what?" exactly:D)
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.(3 of them! One to go)
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights. (Why havent I?? Everybody else here has!!:( )
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[x] I'm single. (well Im seeing someone kind of, but theres no option for that here eh)
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger. (well barely. A quickie last night)

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. (Once I told them I was seeing this friend of mine when in fact I traveled a bit farther to see a guy I liked)
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world. (a kind of silly one. Not telling you!:D)
[x] I've cheated while playing a game. (probably as a joke I have)
[x] I've cheated on a test. (once and it was ages ago! I felt so bad about it for many years!)
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. (Haha, I wish I did)
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books. (I used to)
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random
[/] I can sing well. (Good enough for myself)
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. (haha! we did it for this school party, me any my orientation group)
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower. (sometimes)
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[/] I'm a snob about grammar. (sometimes, but luckily Maarias worse;)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts. (sometimes I forget that I dont though..thats when I put the light on;)

[ ] I am online 24/7.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] All of those are answered honestly

the meme I snatched from Sarah who snatched it from Viggy.

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:20:35 GMT

Thursday again...the best time to write an entry eh. Im at work, yet again waiting to go to soccer practice. I got my anger up a few moments ago chatting with my boss. Im rather starting to get tired of him. I dont really have much to say to him, and his reasoning is pure shit most of the time. I told him I had already stopped working and was just chilling here before soccer, checking out some stuff that interests me. He asked what it was and I told him that I plan to learn to use php+Smarty, because a friend of mine recommended it a while ago. He then asks why I would learn something like that just cause a friend says its good, and why not learn the stuff that Im going to need at work (.NET). Yeah, for sure I know I have to learn that too, but its not like Ill spend extra hours on work, really. This is what I want to learn on my free time, which I just happened to start while sitting at my station at work. Infuriating. I used to think I admired him, wayyyyy back. And not a week goes by without him asking whether I have a boyfriend or not. Why dont you people get it?? I have not met anyone I fancy in a loooooooooong time, Im just not interested in any guy (or girl for that matter). I like to flirt some but Im simply not interested in a relationship and its really difficult, I would LOVE to kiss someone cause its been so long, but thats not possible without the guy thinking its serious and no one else seems to want to kiss me but guys who take it seriously. True, Im not into one night stands, but sometimes Id just like to be physically close to someone without it instantly meaning that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. So anyone wanna play spin the bottle with me?;D

Ok maybe Im a bit depressed again, having just returned to the Finnish wannabe-winter (which actually this time comes close to being white) from Gran Canaria, with a nice enough tan and a few extra kgs. I spent a week in Maspalomas, Playa del Ingles, with my family (mum, dad, aunt, brother&his wife + their two sons [aged 2 and 6 months]). One of the seven days was spent befriending the toilet, but other than that it was a worthy vacation. The kids produced enough activities for all of us adults, which was fortunate, seeing that there was absolutely nothing to see, besides the beach boulevard and the dunes. But Sun! Oh, the lovely, burning Sun! Heat! Sun! Heat! Sun! Walking around barefoot<3<3<3<3<3<3 Of course, the thing that constantly made me feel happier was the Spanish, although I got a bit tired with everybody urging me to speak and take care of everything ("Oh Laura ask if this food portion includes pepper." "Ask them why they took away the travel bed at our room!") But normally it would make me feel quite good if I made myself understood, although I did say some tonterias occasionally.
Id rather have stayed at Las Palmas, which is no where near as plastic or fake, but I guess its once in a lifetime. And the dunes were really nice.

My life as a scifi hörö (piti kirjoittaa hörhö).

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 16:13:17 GMT

Phlegm. Hihii.

How dull can a life be? Well mine probably isnt that bad, Im just grown a bit tired of it.. I have very little to do for school, having only one course this period (Spanish. And sometimes I couldnt care less about going to class. Whats wrong with me?), so Im working every day. Hmm, suddenly I remember (or what Im really trying to say, suddenly I cant remember if) I already wrote about all this stuff. Well, anyways, yesterday I made a quick delivery of a TiTo-book to this guy at the uni and stayed a while, trying to finish my Spanish homework, which turned out to be almost impossible with quite enough people coming for a chat. I really, really didnt mind, cause I seemed to need exactly that. Thanks guys, for cheering me up, even if you didnt know you did:D I know I appeared to be on a rampage most of the day, but after this occasion life went on much smoother.

Im still at work "as we speak", but Im off to soccer soon. Havent been working for the last hour or so, and naturally I wont be marking this time as work done. Im just hanging out, doing random stuff, even if I should be studyiiiing for my exam next week, haha. Nah. Ive got about three hundre pages of English to read til Tuesday. I fail:D I alreayd decided to flip through the thing which should be enough, seeing I read the other book more closely. ANNNND, on Wednesday, Im off to Gran Canaria<3<3<3 I cant wait! Im so excited about hearing Spanish and sun bathing and all! And! I got some new clothes to wear, like these tiny shorts (which will look no where as gorgeous on me as on someone with lovelier legs, but which I love nevertheless, except that I insisted on buyin them in white, so I really have to be careful what I have for undies..) AND some nice shirts to wear. Yeiyeiyei, heat! I love sunshineeeeeee!

Ok. Thats it folks, I really need the loo.

Inter Arma Enim Silent Leges

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 17:57:01 GMT

"In times of war, the law falls silent." Thats what it says, that is.

I am not having a great time. Im still a bit sicko, just a basic flu, but its enough to keep me at home while every one else is in Nummela (thats the place wasnt it?) playing soccer. Damn it! Im so mad at myself for getting sick with a soccer tournament approaching! Oh for fucks sake!

So now Im stuck at home, hating myself, not getting anything done and feeling miserable.

Ive got an exam on Leadership in a few weeks. One of the books I have to read is rather interesting on some aspects. Until now, one of the things Ive been able to put together is that it really suggests that one cannot have a life intact and whole while being flexible at work. What I (it) means(s) to say is that the flexibility and self control you have to show doing your work nowadays does not reflect well to ones personal life. Short term jobs and changes all over create a huge amount of pressure and uncertainty, so that the things we value, like loyalty and stability become meaningless and abstract in the minds of the children that are being brought up in the present day. Im not going to go into the matter more closely, cause thered be quite a few things worth mentioning and Im too tired (or lazy) to really start pondering right now.

I hate myself at work. More closely, I hate the person that I am at work. Im so apathetic and serious that I almost forget what Im really like. Then it all becomes a blur and I wonder whether this is the real me and the person I thought I was never existed. Now that I dont have many courses at the university and Im working on a regular basis its worse. Im so used to having people come up to me at school for a chat, cause they genuinely seem to think Im nice and funny, and they really want to talk with me. Im used to seeing people I distantly know all over the place, being smart enough to amuse people and keep up a decent conversation. At work...well, its a great deal better than it was. Until the Chrismas party I just couldnt get myself to talk about anything. Nowadays I do talk, but I mostly feel like Im from another planet. Well, to tell the truth I am, with way too many men and myself stationed at the nerding section. Haha. At school I handle guys real well, at work I feel like I cant act the way I normally do. I dont think I could act smart and be the easy myself at the same time:D Besides, when Im coding, I cant really tolerate disturbance. My concentration has to be on the job or it wont go anywhere. Thats how its at home too, I cant even listen to music while coding. Sometimes, Ive noticed, I even draw better if Im not listening to music. Ha, and its not just the coding, its working in all, that I tend to take rather seriously. And yes, I do hate it that my brother sits in the room. I propably wont have to take too many years of this, though. I might look for another job the time my parents retire, right now I just need the money. The experience isnt too bad either.

Felitsa

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 00:22:42 GMT

This is so lovely.

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 02:07:12 GMT

Oh MAN I cant stop smiling.

I just finished the biggest part of my school assignment, an a* search algorithm. Its 4am and Ive been coding for about 3 hours AND ITS ALMOST THERE!!!! Of course theres still some shit to work out (just adding the heuristics really), then I should clean it up and see if I can optimize it any way. Then its just the documentaries and Im done. Oh and testing, of course. Ah well. Maybe I should continue working on my course of XML which I kind of dropped last week. Blablabla.

Jeez Im happy.

Coding is not half as bad as I used to think. I love it how you can really see the progress and the finished product. When its working, its really working and you feel like youre holding all the strings in your hands. Haha. Strings. (String = character string. eg. "cat", "I like coffee.")

And btw. Computers always work exactly the way you tell them to. (Excluding some problems with hardware).

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 15:04:56 GMT

lotr ppl who have not heard this properly, I suggest you do.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LUNOl_zbrqk

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 08:29:03 GMT

HEATH!!!!:O

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 20:24:15 GMT

Hey yall..
If you know the movie Coming to America (with Eddie Murphy), you should watch this clip from Star Wars. AHAA! just gets me every time. Man James Earl Jones is awesome.

Ah damn it. My new school project isnt catching fire. Ive got to show some definitions and calculations on Tuesday and I have oh no idea what Ill do. Well, actually, I should be reading this article, which probably would help me, but feel real tired already and my mind just pops to other things. Lalalaaaaaa. Lalalaaa. -thrusting hands aimlessly in the air-

I bumped into this article about computer science students. Of how the level of their abilities is decreasing. Even if its just some guys opinion, it did get me into thinking how it really is at school. How this is a helluva difficult branch to start with and how they have had to make things a lot easier just to try and get more students in. How sad. Theres so much I should know and have learned by now.
And how informatics is taught at polytechs. Seems to me like theyre missing out on a whole lot of important stuff. Most likely I dont really know whats up in there. Mental note: ask someone. They are the coding force of this country so Id rather see them well educated.
And I hate it how badly the user interfaces are planned at work. That is to say not planned at all. Shame on my brother. Why make a software if you dont do it properly?

Im not sure I have really much to say here. Oh right. We had a cousins meeting today at my aunts. It was real nice seeing the lot of them. Some of them are more than 10 years my senior so only lately have I been able to make friends with them, seeing that I finally have gotten into a nice, "ripe" age;) Though sometimes I do feel they get a little tired of me, cause I seem to be all over the place. Yeah, I might be. Im just so taken when Im with them, cause they actually seem to want to talk to me and laugh at my jokes so heartily.
Also! Oh so weird but I found a song by BSB that I hadnt heard before and that I actually like! Part of it is kind of boring, but the chorus is lovely and makes me real sentimental in a way. Im still not over all that guy shit. So Siberia\o/

Yeah, Im feeling guilty cause Ive been so lazy with that project I mentioned;)

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 13:51:23 GMT

Im very positive about Kubuntu. Check out why.